J/L Capt Corbin/Lt Grant [BACKLOG before Briefing]

Posted on 240909.08 @ 17:29 by Captain John "Psycho" Corbin Ph. D. - KIA & Lieutenant Kira Grant

Mission: The Prix Experements
Location: =/= Captains Ready Room =/=

John nodded and let his hands drop, his face twisted, "Counselor, how much do you know about Betazoids?" he asked softly and sat forward, trying to keep his mind clear.

"Just really what we learned at the Academy. How they can read minds, detect your feelings, have a strong connection with the one's they love." Kira tilted her head as she looked at him. "Is that what you mean?"

"Kind of," he replied and took a breath, "as Betazoids mature, so do their telephathic and empathic abilities. With this, we normally have all of adulthood to keep up and adapt to the gradual change...I didn't get that chance," he explained and sighed, "I feel like I'm twelve again and having them develop again, only now it's like I'm getting hit upside the head by a fifteen pound sledgehammer, it's getting maddening," he admitted.

"Did your parents teach you any ways to deal with what was happening as you were growing up? Ways to control from feeling so overwhelmed that you, well basically go crazy from everything you hear and feel?" Kira asked him as she tried to connect with him. Although she was not Betazoid and definatly not up to their level, she could understand what he was speaking of to some sense. Kira's grandmother, a shaman, had passed that on to Kira as she had grown up.

John nodded, "aye, but it's..." he paused and looked thoughtful for a second, "it's like going from the Academy to your first assignment. You have knowledge of all the skills, but the skills themselves develop over time. Right now, it's like I've gone from Cadet to being made Captain without being able to develop the skills fully to command, I only have the text book knowledge, if that makes sense?" he asked.

"So it's like you know how to do it but don't have the experience to put it into action?" After thinking about it a moment she nodded. "Yes that does make very good sense. Is it just effecting your work or your personal life, Or is it effecting both?"

Corbin shook his head, "not yet, but it's building, I can feel it like a pit growing in my stomach, this' not the best time for me to lose control, heh," he replied, "is there anything you can do to help me out? You know if this wasn't something that I didn't feel would impact anyone but me I would just keep it to myself, but if I get overwhelmed at the wrong time......" he added, letting that thought just hang there unfinished.

"All I can really do is give advice and listen to you. You don't require medication or anything like that. We are all going though some difficult times right now Sir. And you have the weight of the whole ship on your shoulders. You need to, share the responsibilities with your executive officer. Get some of the pressure off. And for personal, talk to your wife, she is the best one that can help in a time like this." Kira watched his reactions to her words.

"It's not pressure, Counselor," he replied and shook his head as a message beeped on his terminal, "everyones in the briefing room, pick this up later?" he asked, sincerely not trying to blow her off.

"Yes," She rose to her feet. "When you have a free moment you call for me and I will come running. Captain, we will get though this. I promise you that."

"Thank you, Counselor, I appreciate it," he replied sincerely and stood, following her out.